Anxiety is haunting me this week. I am still feeling sick, my boobs are exploding, and my belly is bloated so I know I'm pregnant but I can't help but feel anxious about not having some sort of confirmation, ie. heartbeat or US. I know it's a direct link from me looking at too many chat boards since all those ladies have had some sort of confirmation once, if not more....but I enjoy the chat boards so I don't want to give them up. I have a countdown to hear the heartbeat, 13 if Pam will listen which I don't think she will and 20 for Colleen's appt. on May 16th. I know also that part of my anxiety is simply because I am anxious to tell some other people in my life, I feel like I'm lying to them, especially the Dunas but I don't want to if something is wrong. Oh why can't I just have faith? so, onto other things....

This is my first post. The last few weeks have been hard. I"m struggling to keep focus between nausea, exhaustion, and excitement over new baby. Griffin has been a good boy but he has been ACTIVE and then last night he decided to be awake for 2 hours. Somehow I "tricked" Lee into being up for most of it which wasn't purposeful but soooo wonderful. My nausea is way worse when I am over exhausted. ok, until later....