Newest bundle of joy

all is healthy. legs crossed tight. guess we get a suprise in march :)

Still sicky and us

I had the longest work day yesterday. It did not help my cold one bit. I went to bed shortly after getting home and slept great until 5 a.m. Then I was just BING awake. So now I am super exhausted from the snot and the early wake up.

Our us is tomorrow! I am pretty stoked. I keep worrying About dumb stuff related to it, ie. Lee not getting there on time, the rec not working,prelims withinsurance. I am pretty sure it is just nerves about the baby seeping out ut who knows? Regardless it is making more irritable.

Some stuff at work has been resolved and making a little more calm and then a few other things are not and making me NUTS! I will wait until I am healthy and then tackle it head on!

Full blown cold

I am miserable. Stimkers. Stuffed up to the max and pressure in the head...combine that with my already reduced breathing ability and I am a hot mess. Pretty sure I am making my family miserable too sadly. This is going to be an easier week but lots going on still. Mi hope to rest rest rest today and get better quick.

Saturdays on pbs

I have been surfing PBS any Saturday I get a chance. I forgot how great it can be....cooking shows, documentaries, and other great programs! I am such a nerd I know.

I woke this a.m. Feeling like my body is fighting something...belch. Head feels congested and energy very low. So I am still in my pjs and also mostly been on the couch.

Later cardinals game! A very exciting Saturday indeed. Bout the only other discovery today...NUTELLA! And it is bad in such a good way that it will be exiles from my house future wise. I might buy it as stocking stuffer tho since it really is so good. Ha.

Dreamt this baby was a boy

But he was wearing a bow. It was an odd dream in which I did not discover the gender until 2 days pp

It was all crazy and then I got mad about someone putting a bow on my baby boy (thinking about this realistically paisley probably did it-ha). Anyhow I wonder if my dreams are right?

Must be a cardinals fan in there

Watching the game baby chuck started kicking and kicking and kicking. At one point my hand moved. I cannot wait until others can feel him/her in there....I think it will be so neat for the kids. Anyhow of course once lee had his hand near me the baby stopped kicking. Our kids are always shy in utero with their dad...either that or he has that calming effect on them. Just call him the fetus whisperer :)

Oh and the cardinals won game 1 of the world series! Goooo red birds!

Bed early

Went to bed very early last night and feel pretty good today. So maybe I was just really fatigued yesterday? We shall see how today goes. I have a very busy work day just like Monday and am wondering how much that contributed to yesterday. I didn't feel like I needed a nap overal but my body needed rest physically. This is the worst part for me-losing some semblance of control with my body.

Body protesting

I feel like ever since I said just the other day I was on target for gaining less weight this time my body has been in protest. I have been watching my food choices and walking as much as I can. Today my body just basically said "no more". I am going to try to listen but this stinks...I want to be active as long as I can be but this stinks if this is it. Ugh. Acceptance being worked on.

19 week check up today

All is healthy with me and baby chuck. I really have been feeling great so there was little to talk about. I gained weight but moderate and am on target to gain less this time which would be great really. She thinks I might have an anterior placenta which I have suspected...next week we shall find out at our ultrasound!

Anyone watching Dexter this season? So great and this season is awesome so far. I highly rec this series altho be warned it is gory.

almost 19 week belly

here I am in all my glory. ha. definitely "popped".

Dead squirrels

I ran across way to many dead squirrels today...none by my own doing but it got me thinking. My great grand mother referred to them as rats with tails..she considered them a nuisance. Now having a 6 and 4 y.o. In my life my appreciation for a squirrels cute factor has grown. As I walked to my car today I noticed the tail of this particular squirrel...it was different than some, fluffy yes bit also speckled with color. He/she was picking bugs from a tree lawn and only slightly moved away as I walked by. Moments later I got in my car and drove down the street only to see this squirrel squished in the road..yes the SAME squirrel! The tail flitting in the wind away from the body. I almost cried. It sucked. I was horrified my kids might see it and be affected...but there it was in the road. Aaahhh, the innocence of children....glad they are in my life to bring me out of my desensitized state at moments,even if it is emotional. I say a short prayer for that squirrel....and then proceeded to see 4 other dead squirrels in the road...so I said squirrel prayers yet again. Oh my...that was sort of ridiculous. By that point I was laughing. Yes, I was laughing at dead squirrels or at my situation with the. All sort of a ridiculous Friday afternoon.

Avocado, apple, then pear?

I have a pregnancy app and the last few weeks the above mentioned fruits have been what they have used to describe the babies size. It makes no sense to me..they are so negligible with varying sizes amongst the fruits. Haha.

Feeling the baby move it feels bigger than a pear today. Lol. Way bigger.

Being adult

Feels foreign sometimes. I think my parents did a great job raising me and they take life in their hands when needed. Yet it seems more than I care to admit I discover things just a little late...usually through very good observation skills but really? When will I just figure it out? Ugh.

Roof
Insurance
School Shiznit
Couponing
House Shiznit

Oh and more.....whatever. I know I am a fine adult but it is just frustrating. I feel like I am just missing the train as it pulls away from the platform...every single day.

Today's baby name suggestions

Griffin: boy will be sonic (zoom) and a girl will be king
Paisley: the baby's name will be waddabel for a girl and explode for a boy

Baby bargains bonanza and aldis

Today was bargain day! I found snow pants that will easily last two years for griffin, snow boots for the girl, 10 pairs of practicallybrand new grunts for the boy next size up, a stack of books, some thick tights for the girl, a couple cute clothes items for the girl, and some brand new gender neutral stuffs for baby.....for $25

Then went to Aldiss for the first time and scored lots of fresh stuff and some pumpkin and some pasta and some other random needed things for $20

Deals!! Woot.

My five

The sun shining
Baby kicks
Visiting a friends new baby
Walking twice to/from school
Park with friends after school


Oh and a sixth...grey's night!!!

Shit storm

Today felt like just that. I tried beginning the day with some positive intention and a good outlook but well, it just sort of did not work. Without going into much detail basically a good portion of my income is being messed with. I should know better than to trust it and in the big picture it is a learning lesson. I am just kicking my feet right now....full on tantrum, through the tears. Blah.

Through it all I felt the baby kick more than I have ever....gave me some sort of reassurance that life is more than this shit storm or thenext but man....for all the bad in the world you sometimes have to wonder why stupid, bad shit happens to the good guys., not just me included.

I lie here tonight promising to breathe, to wake up refreshed and to look at tomorrow as a gift. It is all I can do or I might never leave the bed again.....


Exhausted for now.

Baby naming with kids

Is hysterical work. Griffin says the baby should be named Norris griffin Norris for a boy and sparkle for a girl. Later he told me that David was a nice name too....so, David carroll griffin norris was his suggestion. Haha. Paisley typically nixes everything we suggest and gives her own suggestions of neh-neh or ju-ju.

We are making a list and needless to say none of their suggestions are on it.