So, yesterday was a much better day than saturday. I don't know what was up with my emotions/hormones on saturday but I just felt awful and bitchy. I think I adequately apologized to Lee-he seems to have forgiven me and we've made some plans to get together for budget discussion, marketing goals, etc. I think that will be really helpful for us to finally accomplish. In the meantime we have been working on cleaning up the house. It is actually starting to look organized which is sort of scary in a way :) The dirt still piles up but we have Liza every other week for that help and if we keep on top of the clutter, ie. everything has a place so freaking put it there, I think we can live in this house for a few more years easily. Less than a month now until G is in fulltime daycare and although I NEED to work hard before this 2nd kid gets here so FT is crucial to that scenario I know I'm going to miss that little bugger. I really am not going to see a lot of him. Maybe that will be good for my appreciation of my growing son, I hope so! We have really been having fun together although today after nap was a bit trying on my patience...maybe Griffin or maybe a friend that was over but I was reaching my boiling point quickly. Thankfully I did not and all was calmed.

I don't know why the bit of doubt is settling in again about this pregnancy. I heard the heartbeat not even a week ago but I haven't consistently felt the kiddo in there so now I"m doubting again....thankfully I have an appt. on wednesday with Colleen and Lee plans to attend. We'll hear the heartbeat again and then only a few more weeks of paranoia before I will be consistently feeling this little one move. I am hoping to get a date for our big US too on wednesday!

well, gotta go work on a patient. I'm here on a monday evening...I keep asking myself why? Oh well, I need the $35 I guess :)

Still tired today. Griffin slept well I think even though I heard him through the night. He woke in a very good mood and stayed that way even when I dropped him at Jennifer's house. I have a busy a.m. until 1:30 and I know I can do it but I don't want to do another damn thing after that. I really should though. I am catching up with April's claims and I should really finish it off. And don't even get me started on the kitchen! ha....it's a disaster zone. Well, after having a chai this a.m. I am feeling perkier, we'll see how long that lasts-ha!

Juniors install dinner last night....was able to share with a few more people that I"m preggo which was fun. Noone really cares though...I'm still torn about that group in general.

later....