So, yesterday was a much better day than saturday. I don't know what was up with my emotions/hormones on saturday but I just felt awful and bitchy. I think I adequately apologized to Lee-he seems to have forgiven me and we've made some plans to get together for budget discussion, marketing goals, etc. I think that will be really helpful for us to finally accomplish. In the meantime we have been working on cleaning up the house. It is actually starting to look organized which is sort of scary in a way :) The dirt still piles up but we have Liza every other week for that help and if we keep on top of the clutter, ie. everything has a place so freaking put it there, I think we can live in this house for a few more years easily. Less than a month now until G is in fulltime daycare and although I NEED to work hard before this 2nd kid gets here so FT is crucial to that scenario I know I'm going to miss that little bugger. I really am not going to see a lot of him. Maybe that will be good for my appreciation of my growing son, I hope so! We have really been having fun together although today after nap was a bit trying on my patience...maybe Griffin or maybe a friend that was over but I was reaching my boiling point quickly. Thankfully I did not and all was calmed.
I don't know why the bit of doubt is settling in again about this pregnancy. I heard the heartbeat not even a week ago but I haven't consistently felt the kiddo in there so now I"m doubting again....thankfully I have an appt. on wednesday with Colleen and Lee plans to attend. We'll hear the heartbeat again and then only a few more weeks of paranoia before I will be consistently feeling this little one move. I am hoping to get a date for our big US too on wednesday!
well, gotta go work on a patient. I'm here on a monday evening...I keep asking myself why? Oh well, I need the $35 I guess :)
Monday, May 14, 2007
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You know I'm not at all bugged that you missed the film screening - I own the DVD and the book, you're welcome to borrow it sometime or come over to watch it if you'd like that better.
I totally hear you on the appreciating the kiddo more when you get some time away from him - I get that way with Liam all the time. That whole "how can I miss you if you're ALWAYS TOUCHING ME?!?" attitude has gotten significantly more noticable since this pregnancy started. I'm wondering if it might be a normal, biologically-triggered response to distancing the "older baby" a little (and being more comfortable with others caring for him) in preparation for the new baby that will need Mama so much more?
This too shall pass, take some deep breaths. I have a prenatal yoga DVD you're welcome to borrow if you'd like - I can't focus enough to do new poses and Liam climbs on me too much to practice the ones I have enough muscle memory to do. Find a way to relax and connect to the coming baby and your own center, whatever is the best way for YOU to do that. I'm an extrovert so for me it's interacting with others and babbling ;) I know most other people it's a more internal process. Do what works for you, you'll be refreshed and at least a little less grouchy. Worked for a whole hour for me last night ;)
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